I have this habit of staying up until 12 midnight just so I can scroll through my Facebook memories. I like looking back and reading what I shared on my social media timeline— from the cringe-worthy and funny photos from high school and college to the random quotes and links I’d post. I like seeing who I spent my March 26 with 8 years ago, or what I was up to on the 22nd of February last 2017.
I’m a rememberer. I still remember my childhood friend’s birthday, even if it’s been years since we last talked. I remember the date of the first time I cried over a boy. I remember how Mommy reacted when I told her I’m graduating with honors. I remember how my first day at my first job went, even the color of the shirt I wore.
The very memories I attach to dates limits me from looking forward to the new that God can do, the new He is already doing.
Waves of nostalgia would come crashing on the shores of the present. Comparison starts to seep through my now, making me think that what happened before is way better than where I am today.
I’m letting the past block the potential of my present. I was the one setting the standard on the best that God can do, instead of fully trusting Him with my now, and with all my tomorrows.
I wonder if this is how Joshua felt when God was telling him to take the lead after the death of Moses. He has witnessed countless signs and wonders under the leadership of Moses. If I were Joshua, I’d ask God where my staff is, where’s my Aaron, where’s all these things that Moses had when he was being commissioned?
But Joshua never asked any of those questions. He had something better. He had a promise from God. The promise of His presence.
“I will be with you.”
“I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
What. A. Promise.
Looking back, I see how He kept that promise every single day.
He was there when I was curled up in bed, tired from crying.
He was there when I walked on Q. Pav’s stage to receive my diploma.
He was there when I was overwhelmed with all the deadlines I needed to meet.
He was with me in all those memories.
He never left.
He’s present through the people He’s put in my life.
He’s present in every circumstance.
And He is with me still. In this very moment. He is with us.
Memories fade. But His word will never change.
He will always be with us.
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Prayer point: Lord, I pray that every time I look back at everything happened in my life, I will remember your faithfulness in keeping Your promise of presence. Thank You for every day I can be sure that You are with me. Thank You for working all things together, from the past up to now, for my good and for your purpose. In Jesus’ name, amen.